Seriously I just make it to the year 2014. I feel like I have the chance to start fresh and make some positive steps towards making my life even better and cherries every moment. I am not going to make any resolution this year since is means something I probably won’t succeed. Instead a small goal for each month would be sensible (next post). Honestly, I am not in a good condition from the beginning of 2014. A lot of things happen in my life. Heart and brain turn numb where there is no tears or feelings as leaving person. The way I express my anger is much different from anyone. Some people will cry, some will sleep, some will blast the music to release the anger. As for me, entire incident trigger to bulimia and depression relapse. Don’t pity me because is not a right way. Is called disappointed! My mom and bros came to see me because of car crash. At the same time something happen and they have to drive back to hometown. In the end I just realize my dad ask them to go and find me again. He knows that I’m not really in a good situation (ask for medicine). So when my mom said they are coming back and my tears drop. I just don’t know why but indeed I feel much better. Words really can’t begin to describe how I feel but eventually it will turn back to the home button.
The first snow has came. Do you know that? In Joseon, the day the first snow falls any lie is forgiven. They say it is the only day that someone who lie to the king, may be forgiven.
Hola buenos dias. como estas usted? I have no idea how to start a little update on my life. I feel really uncomfortable to write my thought here but somehow I just wanted to express how grateful I am. I may not have a perfect life which I always dream of. My fantasy is always beautiful but somehow I was broken. It may not be perfect after pasting broken vast but somehow I am stronger now and begin to feel fixed. I am just like a cactus. Perhaps I never wanted to show how week I am from the outside. Therefore, I’m deceiving myself. But is ok…I am so grateful where my family are there for me when I was in the worse condition that is depression. Is insidious and repulsive that I couldn’t imagine how hard I try to live. I am a survival now because I am still breathing. One day I will be free from medicine. There are many things happen in my life that I couldn’t express out. I may express myself is a wrong way which I couldn’t help it. There are so many indescribable feelings. Depression, anorexia and now I am a bulimic. Sudden weight lose and now sudden weight gain. I am tired…..I am stronger. I can make it to the end!
My typical day is quiet boring and I keep the same boring and lame routine. Ahem, I always keep the same routine back in KL life but the life is consider superb as compared to NOW!
As usual, first step once I reached KL will be meeting with Doctor T. Pile of medicine but this time the dosage is quiet low. I really doubt about myself. Yet, life just moves. Nothing special since the routine is similar back to student life. Mostly shopping and search for nice food.
First come first, we headed for brunch at Yuen Garden Dim Sum. Sort of family gathering. Not a perfect family but well this is it…
As usual, I went to KLCC and Pavilion for shopping. So called my retail therapy! There is a huge difference between sales person in Kl and Penang. In Penang sale person will always stick around you = thieve ≠ customers.
Break time at Nonya Colors.
Having my dinner at waffle Meister.
Back to hotel to get some rest.
I totally cannot wake up the next morning until a phone call from 2nd brother. First thing first, get myself a cup of coffee for breakfast at San Francisco Coffee.
Having brunch with family at Tropicano city mall at Kluang Station but I ended up eat salmon croissant
at Delifrance. Not into asian food.
Stop at the last mall at 1 Utama. As usual, I will stock Marks and Spencer biscuit back to Penang. So mom’s bought me a box of Cinnabon. I am such a sweet tooth.
Family dinner at Ribs King. It come to the end of the day and is time to go back to reality world. The end.
This is my first time MIA like a decade. I had never miss out writing any crap on my blog for more that 1 week. Well, sorry seems to be……..(^.^) Probably, I am lost of interest in blogging. But, hey! I am back now with new spirit. I guess I really miss out a lot of things that I wanted to talk/write crap stuff. I will be back. To be continue…
If they were to heal another person’s wounds, they themselves should know what being hurt is.
That’s why, I will be hurt everyday.
Even so, I think it will be okay.
I am in the place where people are.
And I am receiving love from someone.
It’s all right.