Dear diary,

My current frame of mind is tranquility right now. Perhaps my doctor was right. Maybe is just fate despite that I really blame myself for the heat debate. I need to learn when to step back and when to step up again. At present, I learn to step back. The reason behind this decision is very simple

~Is time to let me rest after almost three years of struggling in D, ED and B.
~Time to meditate and heal myself

I was really worried of triggering but currently everything was under control. My sleeping was much better than before. I am no longer needs SP to induce my sleep. As for L, I still couldn’t get rid of it. Side effect was showing up after consuming so many medicines everyday and every year. Never give up on hope because one day I will free from medication. I have to learn to live with an open heart, which is the hardest for me. I believe god has castigated me for not holding my belief and moral values in life. God love everyone this is why they will never let you be alone instead god will place a few good people to give you audacity in life. I don’t think I can continue this rant. I feel so emotional yet happy. Well, I hope everyone can be inspire with this quote from an amazing people.

“Because when you stop and look around this life is pretty amazing”
“What means to be will always find a way”
“I think we like to complicate things when it is quiet simple“

Sincerely,
3lin